Sunday, October 31, 2010

Maybe this is the another side of me you don’t really know and understand

Seems like Dochi’s blog, right?? But I just feel it too. I feel like I have another side of me that never seen by the other person. Yeah, maybe right if I just live in a pretending. But, it’s alright. Let me try to fix it. I just want to fix my life.

I feel like have a million talent but I don’t use it exactly now. It’s like just I waste my time to live in this world. So,, now I want to rearranged my life. Let me tell you, okey.
Like what I said in my lately post about something I called REVOLUTION. I just think, that I make a unperfect plan. Yeah. There’s something wrong in my plan. I said that I leave all unimportant thing such as playing around and romance thing. And yeah, I know, my life nowadays was hellah so peace. Really peace. Until I can’t feel fun. I’m so lack of fun. Till someday, I feel like this brain is want to explode. I was overcapacity. I full of though, full of worrying. I feel so afraid if I can’t reach my last destination to be the best kid for my mom and dad. To be the greatest kid for ‘em. To being an awesome person for my lovely mom and dad and the other family. Then I forget about everything in my life. I leave my teen life, all of that. I was growing confidence that “I just have to focus to a school stuff. Forget about everything that just waste your time”. And when my friend talk about romance or something I just think “That’s not something you should think about. Just focus on your final purpose”. So,, I was successful for my own revolution. Everything is feel peace. Yeah, so peace until I can’t feel something like fun, and laugh, and blah. I fell so depress. Feels like I was dead and leave my world. I feel so empty. So, lonely. I’m frikin dead.

So I think anymore. This revolution is want to kill me as a poor kid. I can’t bear it. Really tired of this all. I’m sick enough. I feel like torturing my own self. Till I wake up from my nightmare. That I have to rearrange my revolution plan. I don’t want to be success on just one thing. I want to succeed on everything in my life. I want to be multi talented. I want to try everything while I still alive.
If I just run for my school thing, and forget about anything in my own life, I would be depress just like now. So I was rearranged my revolution plan. I want to be good enough on everything I like. I wanna try to be smart student, I want change my appearance and look better, I want try to sing, I want try to learn photography as I want before, I want to learn Korean language, I wanna try to make my own fashion style, I want to work harder on my blog, I want to learn EVERYTHING!! Is that so cool?? Haha..

God!! I know, you were. You’re the best in my life. Even when I forgetting you, you always warned me to return to the right path. I’m really grateful for the life you gave me. I was no regret to born into this self. God, please just lead me to live my life as I want..
I tell too much huh?? okay, let me say goodbye to ya all.
-Rizki D Kelimutu-

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Make a changes!!

Hello guys!! I’m on my mood to retell you about my last week. so,, I’m busy with school thing. But, I’m not regret about it. I’m enjoy my revolution character. Yeah, I’ve make a changes. I leave all my bad habit. I leave all the unimportant thing such as playing around and romance thing. Now, I live my life seriously. I mean it!! SERIOUSLY!!! Now it’s time to stuck on the book, paper, homework, task, and stuff. I’m to tired to being a bad student. I really want to be a winner now!! Blah..
I’m serious. Nowadays, no school without listen to the teacher. Yesss,, I really like my revolution. I wish, my life gonna be better and better and better.. yeah..
I have a big news guys. you remember about sofi on my last post?? Her dad was pass away on last Thursday. Pitty her.. so, all the d-ment class going to Pekalongan (her hometown). I hoping for the best to her dad. Amen!!

Huh!! Now I have to study harder. I’ve got the mid semester exam on next Monday. Wish me luck guys!!!
And ehm.. what else yah?? Ehm.. this is my playlist on a week. some is outa date, but I really like all of this:
  1. Lady gaga – telephone
  2. Lady gaga – bad romance
  3. Lady gaga – just dance
  4. Lady gaga – speechless
  5. Lady gaga – eh eh (nothing else I can say)
  6. Lady gaga – the fame
  7. Lady gaga – poker face
  8. Lady sovereign – love me or hate me
  9. Justin bieber – somebody to love
  10. Justin bieber – down to earth
  11. Justin bieber ft Jessica jarrel – overboard
  12. Paramore – decode
  13. Lee seung gi – smile boy
  14. Widi (vierra) – you
  15. Nikita willy – kutetap menanti
  16. Geisha – Izinkan aku mendua
  17. Rossa – memeluk bulan

    So,, is it full of Lady gaga track?? Yeah,, lagi suka lady gaga sih.. therefore, I make a special playlist for her called “cherry bum party!!”. lol.. :p
    And for the Nikita willy song. honestly, I don’t really like her, but her song is nice. Smile boy is a really cheerful song. And yeah,, down to earh.. I really like that song.. maybe that’s the song I like the most of all the song in my playlist. Yeho!! Although there’s a rumor that Justin bieber is 51 th years old. But,, haha.. it just make me laugh. It not making any sense to me. I mean,, who the hell someone who make a unimportant gossip like that?? Lol.. so stupid!! 

    Okay, enough. It’s time to say goodbye to you all. Keep following my blog, twitter. And don’t forget to leave comment or fill my cbox yah..

    -Rizki D Kelimutu-

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Me is happy,happy,happy!

Well, guess what? School is super duper guh-reat!! i mean it! like what i said before in my latest post. my revolution is well success. i'm really happy for it. maybe i should jumping jumping and jumping out cuz i'm so happy!! yeah! but,this is called "self control" like when I'm happy, and i'm just "okay, i'm just happy" and still keep calm. i'm cool,huh? absolutely! haha. . lol..
so, while i'm so happy about my school but not at my heart. hmm,i'm so missing someone. ohmygod! but i'm just try to forget. something like an angel always remembering me that i have to focus on my orientation, my dream, my last destination. yeah,key to get success is focus. yeah, focus, focus, and focus..
ehm,maybe we should goodbye. i'm in school right now, and school's bell was ringing. so,
we meet again,later! yeyey. .
-rizki d kelimutu-

Quote of mine

don't dreaming like you have everything. you'll be lazy cuz don't have anything to reach. but dreaming like you don't have anything. so, you try to get everything.
-rizki d kelimutu-