People say by thinking too much, you become a coward

Everyone wants to be a better person, right? Same as me. Moreover, I've already 17 and have to face the fact that life is never gonna be easy just like when you're 5 years old. Mature, kind of thing that we can't easily get just by the age that we're reach. Mature is something that we get from the journey of our life. 

Well,, I sometimes feel so useless. No matter what I've been done, sometimes appears in my head that I've done nothing. I have no special achievement on my life. Then I feel so desperate and start to blaming my self for what happened. Yeah,, this is me. Blaming my own self for anything wrong at around me, that's my special ability. To be honest, I hate it when I can't blow out my anger. I want it, badly. But I'm not even sure if I can blow it out. It always feels awkward when I try to blow out my anger. 

I sometimes feels that I waste all my precious ability. I mean,, I learn many things, and love to doing my activity but it always be flat. I want to be someone who can handle their talent into the right direction and make my parents proud of myself. I wanna hear people applauding for what I've been done. I mean, I wanna be "special". 

 

People say by thinking too much, you become a coward. 

You're scared to face your fear.. So hesitant to step forward. I don't wanna be that kind of person. So I promise myself to start to say I will,, rather than I wish.

Well,, I got much interesting article from Marc and Angel. You should to check them out too.

 

 

okay,, that's it. 

Bye!! Anyeong!! ^^

It's better to late than never say it.

Hello hello world!!

By the way, it's almost a week since my last post.Well,, I want to make a post soon, but kinda confuse because I don't have any topic. So, maybe this gonna be a random post. Oh well,, HAPPY FASTING ALL!!! This is my first post since this month, so I want to say it before it's too late. Aw,, excited!! \(^o^)/.. But since it was ramadhan already, so I have to force my self to be more discipline. I have to stay away from any stuff like this :

and this too

and of course not just it. I also have to endure my emotions, remove my bad habit, and everything that can be affect.

Anyway,, I don't have something important to tell. My life been pretty flat this week. I mean, it still about internet, blogging, watching kdrama, as always. But, oh well, this is life..

 

Many people were talking about the last sequel of Harry Potter. Well,, I personally not too fanatic into that. I mean, I don't follow the story from the beginning so, I don't really get the story. But sometime, I wish I could spend my whole day watching it from the first until the last sequel. It must be exciting! ^^

Oh, I hope to post a bit more. But, I have to go now. Bye!! 

PS!
Allah, on this day, do not let me abase myself by incurring Your disobedience, and do not strike me with the whip of Your punishment, keep me away from the causes of Your anger, by You and Your power, O the ultimate wish of those who desire. -hoxtough-