Happiness theory 2

Even when almost every kids loves candy, doesn't mean any kid will definitely happy if she given one. Sacrifice for the sake of somebody's happiness have to be full of consideration. Or it will just end up wasteful. Happiness, is very personal thus it can't be generalized.

Home, February 14th 2015

Comes to an end

Dear God,

Tonight in planet earth, we are celebrating a new year. Which make me feel sorry for the throwing-fireworks that ruin your sky which already beautiful. So let me just sit here and write this blog post that make me feel like we’re sitting in a cozy couch and I try to pour down my feeling and gratitude for you.

2014 has been, uhm, wonderful. I've found myself become more happy, less sad and top of everything, you allow me to slowly discover some pictures of my gigantic puzzle.  Even though life feel so hard sometimes, but I glad to have you through.

And I wanna thank you for the countless opportunity you gave me this year. For every beautiful scenery I've seen, every thrilling experience, every beautiful city you allowed me to visit and every single happiness I've felt. Thank you so much.

Not everyone is being nice to me. But I wanna thank you for such a big-heart you gave me. I know I couldn't have everyone on my side, so I let them to pass by.

And thank you for the idea and courage to start my own Happiness Project in March. Because as soon as I start it, I’ve been meet my local favorite band twice. Although I never be a real-fan of them since then, haha. And then I create Pudee, my very-best puppy because he will never ever barking or complain. And it release me from having to deal with its feces such as if I have a real puppy, haha. I feel so grateful that March has been so stressing so I start my happiness project that help me to be a person that less-complaining, less-upset and less-angry. One thing that now I realize :

Happiness is not the thing that we should pursue. It something within ourselves that we should feel.

And also, I should be grateful for the sorrowful September that get me a chance to learn about self-compassion. Which then lead me to be more mindful about my life. I learn a lot from that. It lessen my stress level and I somehow become more compassionate towards myself.

And now that I just wind up my craft business earlier in December, I come to realize that it become easier for me to let go of something. It’s like, I feel sufficient as long as I got my own self and you to guide me through.

Life is balance that way. We feel incredibly happy, but something might come up and make us sad. We feel sad sometimes, but then we learn something from our sadness. Perhaps, we lost something but another good thing might come up without we knowing it. So in the end of this year, I just wanna say thank you so much for the chance to be alive. For the opportunity to pursue all the things that matter to me. Yes, there are some obstacles and I slipped sometime. But thank you for making me able to look from the good side in every situation. Thank you for 2014.

xo, 

kelimutu

Dear self

Don't be too serious towards your own fardel. Sometimes, you should try to put yourself as an audience of your own life. Life is funny that way.

We often unconsciously exaggerating our feeling. Like, losing money make you feel upset or a delayed vacation disappoint you. But very often, it's your mind that make you feel that way. Losing money is not that bad, because it maybe remind yourself to share more. A delayed vacation is not that bad because maybe you can have a better offering next time. Don't be easily affected by a trigger that can cause you a negative emotion. Master your own mind and you will find out that life is better that way. ((:

xo, 

kelimutu

You're not that busy

Ki, don't misunderstand thinking as working. As when thinking, you're just imagining that work. And nothing gonna change through imagining. So just do it anyway.

You're not that busy. Your brain is just too crowd of ideas that fussing to be realized. And you might be just misunderstand those thought as an actual work whereas you're not even start anything yet. So roll of your sleeve, baby. You gotta work harder than ever.
It seems like an enormous amount work to do because you haven't start. So just remember your own promise on this post. Kay? (;

Image source: http://what-is-your-fashionality.tumblr.com

You have not come home yet

Last week, when my first niece was born, I feel like I was the happiest auntie in the world. It was like tears, worries and bad expectations slowly become blur and gone. But then I remember a wise suggestion, "Don't be too happy. Something overrated is not good.".

And then yeah. Human is just human. There may something bad attack your life and BUM! Your mood turn down in a blink. And here come a state of mind that very soft, but you just wanna get away from it whenever you get there.

"Sadness makes you human." Sentence that I always use to calm my self down when I get in that position. Fake smile may works to camouflage people around you, but not your brain. It know what the heart feels. And whenever heart feeling down, brain always there to arrange the solutions.

It's okay to be sad. Sadness bring you time to reflect. Like, I may have done something bad in the past, and this just the time to pay back. And sadness bring you a time to searching for another thing that you should grateful for. Sadness just a moment to remind you that you're just a human. Because there is no perfection for human.

There was an article I read from Tobitall's blog but was originally written on Danielle laPoste's website, "Love your sadness. It won't last." Beautifully written and a perfect reminder to stay happy with our sadness.

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I was feeling it. Pure sadness — the inescapability of it plowing through the softest part of me. When you’re in that kind of painful place you’ll try to climb the walls to get away from it. You want it over with.
“Love your sadness. It won’t last long.” A friend texted me late at night. I caught it just as I was turning off my bedroom light.
Love my sadness?
Love my sadness.
Sadness, I love you.
Let me give you a kiss, instead of my fist.
You’re heavy, but you’re so honest.
I should give you more credit. More space.
I’ll be grateful when you leave —
but I know I’ll be grateful that you came.
A metaphor: You know when you catch a cold, and part of you is just a bit grateful for it? The cold itself sucks. But it gives you a reprieve, an excuse to stop, curl up, wind down — it demands a compassionate response.
And if you’re smart, you milk it. Take the day off, order in, watch the entire “Breaking Bad” series on Netflix, sleep… a lot. And while you’re sleeping off your fever, you get the sense that you’re burning off months of built up stuff — and sorting out some internal things. You get better, you put fresh sheets on the bed, and you’ve got a new attitude.
Same thing with sadness.
Sadness gives you the chance to be still with the most tender place of your being.
Sadness is an opportunity to deeply appreciate your losses and your longings.
Sadness brings you eye to eye with your desires.
Appreciation is fuel for change.
Love gives your sadness the energy it needs to move through you… so it can move on.
By loving your sadness, you’re respecting your truth.
And freedom always follows truth.
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So, back to the wise suggestion I've mentioned before. "I won't be too sad. Something overrated is not good". Let me try to love my sadness, try to respect the truth. Maybe sadness will love me back, and leave me slowly.

Oh, doesn't it sounds too drama? Pssssh, maybe I'm just feeling anxious because I have not come home yet. Home make me bored sometime. But I couldn't agree more that home is the place that the heart belong to. (:

Begin again

Life is all about doing things that makes you happy

I totally believe that quote because I practice it everyday. Just like now, I know I write this post because blogging makes me happy. So that you stumbled here, spend your time to surf through this blogsphere (read someone post to another) because you love it, isn’t it?

I actually wanna thank this cyber world so much because I learn many things from here. I could be someone open-minded like today, get know some inspiring people, practice my English, and the mostly important is I could hone my creativity.

Anyway, this is what I promised in my last post. Modify my blog interface will hopefully make my blogging mood increase. But honestly, the fact is, I don’t have any establish connection around me anymore. That’s why my blogging frequency decreased lately. :(

Being in holiday makes me have bunch time to take picture. So, here I decide to post my holiday outfit.

top - random store in Tegal // lace short – gowigasa // flat shoe – cotton ink ft The Little Things She Needs // bag – planet ocean // glasses – Citra Land Semarang

Happiness theory

I heard that to being happy is feel satisfied and grateful for what we already have. 

Andai aku jadi ketua KPK

Bagi saya, salah satu cara untuk mencegah korupsi adalah mengajak setiap orang bekerja di bidang yang mereka sukai. Aneh mungkin, tapi saya melihat ada ‘penyimpangan niat’ yang terjadi pada presepsi masyarakat. Mereka mencari pekerjaan yang menghasilkan banyak uang, bukan pekerjaan yang memang mereka sukai. Dan pada akhirnya ketika mereka merasa kurang dengan apa yang mereka dapatkan, terjadilah korupsi tersebut demi mewujudkan kebahagiaan mereka, yaitu berupa uang. Bagi saya, rasa bahagia dalam mengerjakan pekerjaan yang saya sukai itu lebih penting.

Corruption : Wrong way to achieve happiness (#1)

Beep beep!! Hello people. So sorry for lack of update and blogwalking. I'm just busy with nothing now since it was holiday so I promise to post often from now on. ;)

How's goin? Do I miss some news from blogsphere? I just heard a good news from twitter that Kak Diana Rikasari won IYCE. Whoah, it's sure a big good news for Indonesian enterpreneurship-world. She's indeed a inspirator. Congratulation Kak Di! 


So, I come here with a project from Aleena Deandra from Junebug and me called a chained post. The idea is to share your opinions and criticisms towards one social-issue that we picked, then you get to ask another particular person to do the same, continuing your work until it all becomes one long-chained post from different people, full with our different opinions, ideas and criticism. Here're the rules you should follow :

1. You can add your words (all in full English, we don't care how bad your grammar is, no exception) directly after the last person's work, without adding any break whatsoever, so it becomes one clean and well-structured essay. You must add for minimum 1 paragraph and maximum 3 paragraphs.

2. You can add between other person's words, only if it's make sense and you don't get to change other people's words. You can also add some pictures and/ videos and/ links or other necessary stuffs to support your reliable words.

3. Your opinions, critics and ideas can be pros or cons, depends on how you think towards the issue (including the reasonable explanations).

4. After writing your words, you must change the number before the hastag on the post's title (#1) into the next number (for instance #5 becomes #6). Then, you must address this post to ONE particular person you like to continue the chained post. You can just simply add their url on the bottom right of the post (and inform them through any social networks to do the post).

5. Remember, this can only be done once, but you can participate to other chained post (so far, we only have two, from Aleena Deandra and Rizki D. Kelimutu) if you're invited to do so.

6. NOTE : You can't copy or steal this post if you aren't invited, as well as not making the same thing without further notice. But you can kindly promote it.

7. Copy the exact same post & disclaimers as they are.

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Indonesia still include on the world's 100 most corrupt country in 2011. Guess why? I think it's because people always look for a job that generate much money for them. Let's go into our deep heart. What you exactly searching for in your life? is it money? I'm not gonna be a hypocrite here. I admit that money is important. But it's not the most important thing in life because we live here particulary for looking for happiness. Don't you agree with me? What we doin everyday, we eat, we buy something, we share love, that's just for the sake of earn more happiness for our self. I know this maybe kinda weird to relate the corruption thingie with happiness. But I have a thought that it less or more relate each other. Sometime they (the corruption doers) do the corruption thingie for the sake of their (or their family) happiness, isn't? So, why don't we teach them how to achieve a happy life with the other way (instead of money, I mean). 

I know one common thing that never fail to make someone happy. That is to do something that they like. If you like to write, then be a writer. If you like art, then be the artist anyway. I know it will not gonna be that easy. But that is the key. Get a job that relate to what you love to do! I remember, Steve Jobs also have ever said that 'we have to try to get know what we love to do'. That's the basic rule of life. The point is, I believe when we have a job that relate to what we love to do, we gonna simply being happy and never have a thought to do something bad to gain more happiness. 

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Garten Paradise by Rizki D Kelimutu http://gartenparadise.blogspot.com/

A Lonely Puppet by Claireta Teressa http://claireteressa.blogspot.com/

IT'S OK TO NOT BE OK

Quote of the day : 

Don't ever regret your own decision. Once you do it, that blaming feeling is always following your mind. 

 

Hi bloggaz! It's a really nice thing I can open my blog and post something here because I kinda busy with my new business and my new lecture. Glad to know that you stay tune in my blog and always support me with your nice comment. I really appreciate it. :)

About my quote above, that is something what I feel now. You know, when you make a decision between two hard things and you've got to choose one of it, but your heart is on the other side. But I have to responsible for decision that I've made ( and sure it's a really hard thing ) and you have no other option but keep walking. Because time is cannot rewind. If I can rewind it, I would back to that time, when I have to choose my future, and follow my heart what I want to be. Now I should working on two things, my obligation, and my passion. It's sure something hard to do, but it's okay. I'll try to do my best on both. 

But yeah, let's skip those hard topic. I just finished my first order. This is a couple scrapbook for my old friend from highschool and she will give it for her boyfriend on his bithday. I hope they like it. Here is the snap pict of it.. :)

Finished pages

The scarpbook on this photo is not finish, but now it finished. :)

and it's ready to send now.. :)

PS!

♥ Anyone have a recommended skin care center? My current skin care is seems like don't really suits me. It make my skin whiter but my face is easily breakouts now. :c

♥ And does anyone know how to grow my hair faster? I'm okay with my current haircut, but kinda miss my long hair nowadays.. :c

Today learning

Don't just look upward. 

In this present time, you got to change your mindset. You got to take a look around at people who try to work hard and put their trust to god. Look upward just always make you lulled by dream, dream how much it fun to be that kind of successful person. So, if you want to be successful person, take a look at people who work hard for their life, and follow their way. Be ashamed, if you just sleep when everyone is sweat. Try to work harder than you did yesterday. YOU JUST NOTHING!! so, try to build your self become SOMETHING. 

Well,, today I got a precious lesson from my friend's grand parents. They're totally great family. They have so much interesting life-story that amaze me soooo much. Thanks for making me awake from my dream,, you all are great!!  :)

Okay, let's change the topic. Now say 

"SAENGIL CHUKKAHAMNIDA" 

for 2PM's 3'rd anniversary.. Hope you guys get more love from you fan, and be more success than now. 2PM go!! Fighting oppa~~

I made this photo for real2pm competition. That's great! I plan to join it right away when they announce the competition, but I lose my picture when I just edit it. Then I lose my spirit to continue that project. But yesterday, I force my self to finish it, so I just upload it today whereas the deadline is tomorrow. Aaaah,, but never mind. I still enthusiastic for this project. Woohoo!! ^^

Not so much to say, and maybe this is my last post for this week. My lecture is gonna start next 12 Sept, and I have to attend Dinus Inside (just like 'OSPEK') on next 8 Sept. So, I have to move back to Semarang which is that means that I'm gonna lack of internet connection because I don't have any modem yet. T.T 

But I try to keep posting eventhough it means that I have to use extra money for internet cafe's bill. :p And I have to responsible to my Korean blog which is it's Hazhuna's and I just the admin. Hazhuna is barely don't have any time to update it because she busy with her school. So, I think I have to back up her to keep our blog updated. So I will try to keep posting and also because I like doing it. :)

PS!

I found a great site. check it out! http://www.axioo.com/ Well, I think its a website of one of laptop brand in Indonesia, then I try to take a look. And whoooah,, they have a great photos and video. It's very recommended especially for couple who wants to get married. Great work,, axioo! Keep your work! :)

I'm just fine, okay?

What I always dreamed of in this world is when I say "I'm fine!" but someone is telling me "You're not. I know it. Come here, I give you my shoulder". Uhhh,, I really need it badly now!!

 

Arrrrgh! Sometime I want to be someone else. Someone who have a life better than mine. Perfect. Is there any perfect life in this world? Chhh,, stupid question. NOTHING. So I can be calmer now. There's no perfect life in this world, mut!

Okay, maybe you ever felt like you're the unluckiest people in this world. But look, there's more thing worse than yours. Just thank to your god that you still have a complete body, family, and everything you have in this world. You have to thanks for it. 

Fall, is an ordinary situation of life. It just the process to make  people understand about their mistakes and make it up so you will not do it anymore in the future. The positive side is, Fall making someone become stronger than someone who never felt it. 

Okay.. 

Close your eyes now

Take a deep breath.. 

Imagine that you are in the super beautiful place with someone you love.. 

Imagine that you got everything you want to have

Isn't that make you happy and smiling now??

If yes, you can open your eyes, and look around you. 

It was just your dream.

Now you have to wake up from your sleep.

But don't be sad, guys!

You still on the beginning of your story. 

There's million thing you have to reach now. 

So lift your head up!

You have plenty things to do


Broke? you call me I'm broke now? anniyo! I'm just fall down. You know, broke and fall down is different. Broke is crash and need a super glue to make it up. I like fall down rather than broke. Because fall down mean that I can get up anymore next time.

Rather than aiming for being perfect,

aim for being better than you were yesterday. :) 

 

So, let's forget everything now. 
Try to find a reason to smile.
And now, let me take a picture of you. 

Click!

See? you smiling now. :)

It's not about what we get from our state, but what we can give for em..

ohkay.. Let's start it.. Maybe April is just another ordinary month. But not for the 21th April. It was the substantiation of girl power. I always appreciate a woman who do the best on her life to prove to the world that the woman also have power to make it happen. 

I believe they do it not just because wanna get a praise from the others but because with their successfulness it means that they're spread their happiness to the others. I believe they do it not just for their self, but for everyone who support, and care and something who always push them to do something better.

ehmm,, by the way, I got several figure of Indonesian woman who I admire the most. Its not just about their achievement, but what they do is something amazing that has motivated many people to move forward. That's the most precious effect from what other people do. 

Okay.. Here she is .. 

• R. A. Kartini

         When I was child, I believe that hero is a person that helping the other people when they're in such an emergency situation. But now I have 17, so I have another opinion. I think hero is someone who doing something amazing in their live and influence the other that everyone can do the same thing like them too if they have a motivation to make it happen.

         That is R. A Kartini. She's the role motivator of Indonesian woman. Hero is the maker of incredible changes in the world. Everyone know that habit is a really hard thing to changed. But I think there's another one that harder than that. That is someone "way of thinking". But she prove that nothing can not do in this world. Woman in the past that maybe just becoming a guardinan's house, but she has succeed to make people changed their mind that woman also have a right. She has prove to the world that woman also have a power to do something amazing in their live. 

• Agnes Monica

        I know that feeling when everyone know about my highest dream, I try all my best to make it happen, even when there's another people that underestimate me that I will never reach it, but all I can do is just keep walking and keep doing my thing. And when the time is come, it will prove to the world that everything what I've done is never wasting. I will not feel ashamed if I can't reach my highest dream because the most important thing in my life is an effort to do something. I love the process of something. I don't really care about the result because result is just the gift of our effort. I believe god will bring us as much as what we have done. 

        That is what I took from Agnes Monica. She's such a modern hero who has motivate many people (including me) to keep doing our best although many people is underestimate us. 

• Diana Rikasari

        Maybe this is the feeling when someone doing an online dating. They're never met each other before, but they feel like they know all about each other, they even believe that their couple is a nice person even never met before. 

        I think that's what I feel since the first time I know about Diana Rikasari blog (the hot chocolate and mint). I know, I never met her before, but I like her style, her photos, even her "way of thinking". Honestly, she's the one of my role motivator to make a blog and keep on blogging till now. 

        I don't know why I like her, but I think it's not just about her cool style or her cute way of fashion. I prefer to her "way of thinking". I even prefer her "thoughts" post or her "miscellaneous" post than her "fashion diary" post. haha.. I know her way of fashion is cute and I like it too, but I like her words more than her fashion style.

That's all what I can do to celebrate the Kartini's Day. I hope woman is always being a powerfull person.

HAPPY KARTINI'S DAY ALL!!!!!!!!!!!

We born into what we have learn

I just suddenly think about how someone could grow up with different mindset. I think it's not just about what families they come from, or their social status, or even how thick their pockets. I think it all depends on the environment around them. When they grew up in a blue environment, then they will become blue. When they grow up in a black neighborhood, then they will become black too.

Besides the environment, television and their daily activities are also highly influenced. I really disappointed to realized how my little brother could be a child who is no longer I know.

Punk, an absurd band, red spiky hair, now is who he is now. Absolutely absurd style. I’m not saying that I hate a certain style. I just don’t want it if my brother become one of them.

I’m not going to make an opinion that they’re got sloppy style. I believe they are all good people and do that because they want to express themselves. I also ever thought that they were cool before I woke up and realized that I had my own style. Beside from all that, I just don’t want that young children who are innocently affected by their style.
The children should grow not based on television or in certain communities. They should grow with the full attention of their family so that’s impossible to formed an uncontrollable child.

Ahhhh,, it just too heavy topic, isn’t? I think I just on random thought. And now I feel so tired because of that. Really starving in the middle of this night. Wanna catch some food first.. 

Teach me how to love you more..

To be honest,, I cry a lot yesterday to think that I can’t be an architect like what I want to. It hard for me to force my destiny that I have a parent like them. Bukan!! Bukan aku menyesal punya orang tua kaya mereka. Cuma ngerasa bego aja, kenapa gue nggak berani ambil keputusan penting buat hidup gue sendiri. Baru sekarang gue bener bener nyesel kenapa gue dulu nggak ambil SMA aja. Kenapa gue gampang aja milih jalan hidup gue kayak milih film. Sekarang betapa nyeselnya gue jadi anak SMK,, gue ngerasa di-anak tirikan bangettt!!!!!!!!!! Kenapa sih,, WHY?????????????

Okay,, now I should to erase ITB ARCHITECTURE from my wish lish. Omg,, I really dislike my life when I getting trap in sucha this feeling. I DO REALLY WANT TO BE AN ARCHITECT. REALLY!!!!!!!!!

Now I have to rearrange my plan. Maybe I was not destined to be an architect. Ya,, ya,, gue terima itu sekarang. Gue pikir,, orang pinter nyanyi nggak harus jadi penyanyi. Dan walaupun gue pikir gue bakalan hebat jadi arsitek, tapi sekarang gue ikhlas kalo takdir gue nggak jadi arsitek. Tapi gue bakal terus simpen mimpi gue ini. TUHAN, PLISS BIARIN GUE TETEP BERMIMPI JADI ARSITEK. Walaupun kenyataannya itu nggak bakal terwujud.

Dan gue pikir, nyenengin orang tua juga nggak ada salahnya. Tapi,, selama gue masih punya impian sendiri, gue bakal kejar impian gue dulu. Selama ini, gue selalu jalanin hidup gue dengan cara gue sendiri. Jadi buat keputusan ini pun gue bakal mutusin sendiri.

Sebenernya akar dari ini semua tu gara-gara gue nonton film cin(t)a. Bukan ceritanya yang bikin gue terinspirasi, tapi gara-gara setting di film itu yaitu fakultas arsitektur ITB. Hey,,, ITB!!!!!!! Gue jadi inget balik mimpi gue jadi arsitek. Terus gue jadi tambah excited buat nerusin cita-cita gue itu. Tapi,, setelah gue liat website ITB, kalo yang diterima di Sekolah Arsitek itu Cuma lulusan SMA IPA sodara-sodara!!! SMA IPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jadi gue nggak punya peluang satu persen pun buat masuk arsitektur ITB. Okay!!! Fine!!!! Deal with it!!

Jadi,, sekarang gue musti focus ke jalan lain. Hidup nggak harus jadi arsitek. Ntar kalo gue udah bisa bikin rumah sendiri, gue bakal lampiasin semua emosi arsitek gue yang nggak kesampean. Biarin sekarang gue berjalan lewat jalan lain. Mungkin jalan yang ini nggak kalah indah di banding jadi arsitek. GOODBYE MY DREAM!!! I believe, ini bukan kepasrahan. Ini pilihan gue,, dan ini final!!!!!!!! Paling nggak gue punya satu blacklist di college list gue.

Hmmmm,, is it boring to talk about my buried dreams, rite??? Dah gue juga udah cukup tegar sekarang buat ngerelain fakultas arsitektur ITB. So,, lets change the topic. Talking about school and my last final semester exam. You know what??? It’s a little bit disappointing. I mean, a lot disappointing. Not that I don’t get a high score. Its about my ability. I think, I can’t do my last exam well. I mean, it confusing. I can’t understand the subject. All the subject. So, I’ll make a short review about my last exam, okay??
Monday :
math : it just average. I got 84. Quite well, alhamdulillah..
religion : I think I luck for this one. I really don’t understand the question, but I got 76. Yes, alhamdulillah..
Indonesian : I don’t really smart for this subject. It just a bit confusing. But, I tried my best

Tuesday :
physic : I just a bit confuse on the multiple choice. But I think the essay was quite understanding..
entrepreneurship : ugkhh,, this is the worst!!!!! No comment. I’m sure I’m on the list of remedial.
Civic education : >.< I don’t care!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday :
sains : its quite good I think.. I wrong at the essay number 1. huhu.. bingung aja gue kira rantai makanan tuh sama kayak jarring-jaring makanan. Ternyata beda toh..
social : yayayaya… yang ini sih tinggal ngarang,, cerita panjang lebar. Yes good!!!
Sport : yeyeyeyeyey!!!!!!! All time cheating. Thank’s pak Iam!! Walaupun ketauan nyontek terus, tapi bapak pengawas yang baik hati!! Sungguh!!

Thursday :
Chemist : uhh,, bad!!! Yang gue pelajarin nggak ada yang keluar. Apa-apaan nih Bu Desti bikin soal.. -___________-
English : OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is the hardest English test I’ve ever do. I can’t do it!!!!!!!!!!! I’m quite sure if I join the English remedial next week. too bad 
RK-6 : uhh,, Bu Yuni keterlaluan nih bikin soalnya. Susah-susah banget!!!!!!! Gue aja nyerah. Disuruh gambar gue malah corat-coret kertas soal. Ahh,, bodo!!

Friday :
RK-7 : yeyeyeyey!!!!!! I love my last exam day. It just the best day in this week. yang gue pelajarin semuanya keluar. Love it too much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
RK-8 : ohkay,, nice..

I think,, UAS kali ini bakalan lebih buruk dari UTS gue kemaren. But, it’s okay. Kayak yang gue bilang di my older post. SCHOOL IS ABOUT LEARNING, NOT SCORING. Gue nggak terlalu peduli gue dapet nilai berapa. Selagi gue kompeten, yang penting tuh gue understand tentang pelajaran yang mereka kasih buat gue. Karena buat gue, sekolah itu tentang pembelajaran, bukan penilaian. But gue juga nggak bisa bantai kenyataan sekarang gitu aja, karena kebanyakan, sekarang itu sekolah buat nyari nilai. Tapi buat gue, selama gue lulus, itu udah cukup. It’s enough for me.

Just remember my friend problem. Jadi ada satu temen gue yang suka nyontek, tapi nggak mau nyontekin yang lain. Jadi, setelah UAS kemaren tuh temen-temen pada nyadar kalo dia itu egois banget. Buat gue, ini masalah simple. Setiap orang kan emang selalu mentingin dirinya sendiri. Mungkin temen gue itu lagi pengen pembuktian kalo dia itu bisa dapet nilai bagus. Jadi dia berusaha dengan cara dia yaitu nyontek. Tapi kalo gue jadi dia,, aduh,, gue bakal malu berat deh,, suerrr!! Gimana enggak,, bangga dari hasil yang bukan keringatnya sendiri. Itu sama aja mamerin mobil bokap ke temen-temen. Ato pamer ke orang lain kalo dia punya sodara yang hebat. (eh, plis deh yang hebat tuh sodara lo). Jadi,, intinya kalo gue dikasih kesempatan ngomong ke dia, gue bakal bilang gini.
“lo bangga nggak kalo lo pake dress bagus yang lo pinjem dari temen lo??”
Well, it mean many thing.. you can conclude it yourself, right??

I guess I write a lot of thing now, right? Is it okay?? Okay lah ya.. gue lagi pengen cerita banyak nihh..
Okay,, so,, next topic itu tentang Pak Cahya!! I know, he’s my teacher. But I just don’t really understand, why he looked so hate me. Idk why. Maybe in his eyes, I looked soooo lazy. Yahh,, I can’t blame him. Gue selalu di kelilingi temen-temen yang dipandang mereka “nakal” jadi mungkin gue kecipratan image mereka. Tapi bisa gue pastiin kalo gue totally different from they are. Ahh,, gue paling nggak suka disamain sama orang lain. Karena (sekali lagi gue bilang kalo) selama ini gue jalanin hidup gue dengan cara gue sendiri. Gue nggak suka niru gaya orang lain. That’s not my style.

Kenapa terus kalo gue deket sama anak-anak nakal terus gue di-cap nakal juga? Gue deket-deket kambing gue dikira kambing juga? Gue ngumpul sama pecundang, gue pecundang juga???? Hey,, wake up!! Bukan gitu konsep hidup. Gue ya gue!!! Mereka ya gue nggak tau, yang pasti nggak sama kayak gue.
Mending sih kalo cuma keliatan benci yah. Nah ini,, nyuruh nyapu lah,, bawa peralatan praktek dari lantai dasar ke lantai 3 pullak. Bikin jadwal piket seenak jidat. Huh!!
Ahh,, belum lagi Pak Cahya ruin my holiday. Ahhh,,, nyebelin banget dah pokoknya. Jadi tuh kan selasa depan libur tuh. Nah,, planning gue sih mau bolos aja hari senen-nya sekalian mudik abis seminggu stuck liatin foto copy-an mulu. Rasanya udah mau mati bosen gue liatin benda hitam putih itu. (ugh!) eh,, dengan polosnya dia bikin jadwal remedial dan koreksi bersama senen depan. Kamfret deh, beneran. Udah gitu ngasih taunya pas gue udah mudik lagi. Ihh,, nyebelin total deh tuh orang. Nggak pernah apa jadi murid kayak gue?? Tau nggak sih rasanya abis exam tuh kayak apa empet-nya?? Huh??? -_____________-

Ahh,, okay.. sekarang saatnya udahan. I’m tired. Ini sebenernya bikin hari jum’at malem. Gue nyampe harus begadang ampe jam 12.30 buat nulis ini. Jadi kayaknya sekarang gue harus ….
Chaooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS!!
wish list :

Quote of mine :
Him : say that you love me!!!!!!
Me : I can’t say it. I love you with all my heart, not my mouth. I can’t say it. sorry.. I worry if it out of my mouth, it can be a lie. But my heart, it’s really deep.

I want to get away from all this harsh reality

Life is full of exam, right?? And, so do I. I’m gonna be in examination next week. Huuuuuuhh,, you can imagine how bad my next week is. :(

Talking about blog.. I’m realized that blog was a part of my life since several month ago. Blog is the only friend I totally believe in this whole world. It just like my first destination when I feel sad of something. It make me open my mind, there’s a lot thing I didn’t know yet. It just like free world where I can write anything I think about. It just like my own diary. It just like my own magazine. It just like my own biography. It was everything!!!

Now I’m realized how I getting addicted to blogging. I do even forget to go to the library cuz I got everything what I wanna read in blog. BLOG IS OPEN SOURCH KNOWLEDGE. We are share everything each other. I never think to earn money from my blog, because I blog for the reason that I like to. I like to write anything from my mind into blog and I like when people appreciate my post. Blog can immortalize my moment so that I can read this post next time when I get older. I feel enough with it.

And hmm,, let’s change the topic. I suddenly think about my school. Well, honestly I don’t really care about my score. I just feel enough when I understand about the lesson they given to me. Cuz I think that SCHOOL IS ABOUT LEARNING NOT SCORING. Feel so sad when Indonesian student is assume that school is just to get marks and diploma. I even disappointed of many student that waste their school just to look cool. HEY,, SKIP THE SCHOOL ISN’T COOL TOTALLY. You’re an IDIOT if you think like that. I life in this world to get knowledge I don’t know it before so that I can live my life in the right way. That’s what learning for. To find out what we live for.

I do realized now what my live for. I live for learn everything. It doesn’t because I’m stupid. It because knowledge is not limited. There’s no ending for learning. I swear, I don’t wanna stop study. I don’t wanna stop read. I also don’t wanna stop blogging. I do realized now how blog has changed book position on my life. Blog is just like my daily magazine.

It is not just about reading someone post,, it’s about what language they use, what word they choose, what color they pick, what picture they show in their post, it’s all trained us to think creatively. So I can say like this.
THIS IS MY BLOG.
IF YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT KIND OF PERSON I AM?
JUST GOES HERE TO GARTENPARADISE.BLOGSPOT.COM

ME = GARTENPARADISE

Quote of mine

don't dreaming like you have everything. you'll be lazy cuz don't have anything to reach. but dreaming like you don't have anything. so, you try to get everything.
-rizki d kelimutu-