Happy birthday cipett!!!!!! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CIPETT!!!!!!!!

Happy birthday ya pettt!!!

I got no gift for you,, but I just able to pray for god to give you all the best.

I got a birthday cake for you!!!! I hope you like it..

kalo udah abis kuenya kamu minum ini ya.. enak lho,, special!!

jangan nangis lagi kayak kemaren.. senyum-senyum,, sini sini,, yang ultah tek foto dulu..

udah senyum kan sekarang..

jagain purwokerto yya,, aku liburan dullu... 

chaooooooooooooooooooooooooooooxx!!

I can't believe this happened into my liffe!! :( => :)

hello y'all!!! I've got an emergancy news for you all. be aware to surprise! I LOST MY LOVELY PHONE!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!! bisa bayangin kan gimana rasanya keilangan HP??

R.I.P my phone..

jadi tu HP tuh ilang di bus gitu kan. pas aku dah turun dari bus tuh aku baru berasa kalo HPku ilang. ah,, mau gimana lagi coba? ngejar tu bus nyampe gue mampus?? ga ada pilihan lain kan selain pasrah?? ywd lah,, ikhlasin aja kali ya.. huhuuuuuuuu,, ikhlas,, ikhlass.. (*tereak tereak kayak di iklan axis.)

padahal gue udah takut banget bakalan dapet omelan yang super incredible dari ibu.. tapi ternyata pas nyampe rumah ibu ada tamu,, (uhh,, jadi agak lega.) dan kayaknya moodnya ibu tuh lagi bagus jadinya dia nggak se-mengerikan yang kayak aku bayangin. alhamdulillah.. (*ngelus dada)

hal yang gue sesalin hari ini:
1. ngilangin HP gue. okay,, sekarang gue harus bener-bener terima kenyataan kalo gue udah nggak bisa sms-an, twitter-an, facebook-an, telpon2an, ahhhhhhhhhhh.. rasanya keilangan hp tuh udah kayak keilangan sahabat baik, ya nggak sih? dia nemenin gue kemana-mana gitu. di kamar, sekolah, ke mall, maen ma temen, bahkan nyampe di kamar mandi pun..
huhuuuu.. rasanya nggak ada sahabat yang lebih setia dari pada HP gue..

ya awooooohh,, hp gue,, simcard gue,, kontak gue,, foto-foto gue,, lagu-lagu gue.. opera mini gue,, omg!!!!!!!!!! can't believe that this happened into my life. but it's time to face it!! gue harus terima kenyataan kalo HP gue sekarang udah bener-bener ilang. (kualat deh gue gara2 maen HP di bus. padahal ibu dah bilang selalu ati-ati,, HP juga ditaro di tas aja..)
2. my report book. okay,, to be honest, I'm not satisfied. well,, tapi gue bersukur banget udah bisa masuk 10 besar. alhamdulillah lah yaa.. dari kelas satu ranking gue mbuncit di belasan terus. yah,, sekarang syukur lah dapet ranking 10.. tapi hal ini bikin gue sadar kalo belajar gue selama ini belum maksimal. gue masih anggep remeh nilai-nilai gue. gue egois banget karena cuman mikirin diri gue sendiri. karena gue sebenernya nggak gitu ngoyo banget buat dapet nilai bagus. tapi gue mikir lagi,, gue kan juga pengen bikin ortu gue bangga.. dengan nilai "asal lulus" gue,, apa mereka bakal bangga?? okay, sekarang gue bakal study harder deh yaa.. (p.r.o.m.i.s.e)

3. well,, gue masih geregetan sama keputusan panitia buku tahunan sekolah gue. kenapa musti tanggal 28-30 desember sih?? kan perjanjian dulu pemotretannya pertengahan januari?? kan gue udah planing buat liburan ikut papah.. masa iya gue renang dari Sorong ke laut Jawa?? cuma buat pemotretan buku tahunan?? well,, kalo dipikir sekarang udah pasti gue pilih liburannya lah ya.. gue nggak mungkin mentingin pemotretan buta yang cuma satu hari dibanding liburan gue dua minggu ke depan?? ihhh,, jomplang banget nggak sih?? yang bikin jadwal unyu banget deh!! dia nggak mau liburan apa?? masak iya ke purwokerto bentaran terus mudik lagi liburan tahun baru.. efisien waktu donk, guys!!! (*geregetan berat)

4. masih bingung banget gimana ntar nasib gue besok liburan tanpa HP. nggak bisa foto-foto sepuasnya,, nggak bisa pamer tweet liburan gue ke followers gue.. (*omg!!!) rasanya pengen gue timpuk tuh copet nyampe bibirnya melar kayak boneka ikan gue. gue nggak abis pikir ada orang sejahat itu. kalo iri pengen punya HP kayak gue kerja donk bang!!!!!! lu nyopet nyampe mampus pun nggak bakal kaya raya kalliiii!! (*dongkol banget gue). se-mupeng mupengnya gue sama samsung galaxy, perasaan gue nggak pernah punya pikiran buat nyopet galaxy adek gue deh.. kok ada ya orang setega dia (*pencopet HP gue) yaaaaaaa???? T.T

without this..

I can't go like this..

well,, tadi di kelas tuh pada ribut mikirin pesan+kesan yang bakalan ditulis di buku tahunan kita. ahh,, gue langsung frustate keinget kalo gue punya banyak banget kamut di twitter gue.. tapi HP gue kan ilang.. t.t akhirnya dengan keterbatasan otak ini nginget-nginget kira-kira apa yang pantes ditulis di buku tahunan gue. dan sekarang gue nemu yang cocok.
"don't cry because it's over. but smile because it happened."
is that so touched?? and I think I can make a new one for my R.I.P phone.
"don't cry because it gone. smile because you ever have it even just for awhile."
walaupun gue nggak bener-bener tersenyum karena dua-duanya.. tapi I like that quotes.

gue nggak mau lama-lama bersedih-sedih ria mikirin almarumah HP gue.. jadi sepertinya gue musti pamit sekarang..

*chaaaoooooooooooooooooooo!!!
goodbye y'all!!
have a fun holiday yah!!! <3 <3 <3

Move is not that bad..

Damn! I hope this been holiday. I really need a fresh air to blow up my boredom. School is not over yet. But I've been in home since last monday. All the remedial was over and as I write in the last post that I'm just a bit dissappoint of my first semester exam. Not because I got a bad score. It's better if I call it "my bad luck" because everything that I learned not popped up on my question exam. blah.. hate it!!

well, this is my remedial list :

- Chemist : I got 65.. not that bad. but I have to redo my essay. so,, okay..

- RK-6 : blah.. honestly,, I'm just not that luck for this one. I can't draw the first and fourth number. padahal kalo digambar bebek aja mungkin gw ga remed kalllii..

okay,, it's look so easy that I just have two subject in my remedial list. but I have 2 more list. ulangan harian susulan IPA + PKW. but,, I done with that all. alhamdulillah.. :)

Feel so damn down last monday when I arrived at home and see my room was empty. Everything was empty. My mom move my stuff to another room in second floor. she don't remind me first!!!!!! That's why I get so mad on her. bahhh!!! that's why I escape from my house into my grandma's house. I sleep there because I think I don't have a room anymore.. I love my old room so much!!! <3 <3  so,, tomorrownya aku nyadar I'm just too childish. so,, I think more clearly and wisely. I think, move is not that bad. I tell to my self that move is a new oppurtunity for me to decorate a new room. so,, I start to pack everything. and I'm in my new room right now when I write this post. I'm happy enough that I have a new bed, bathroom, wastafle on my room, new cupboard, yeah,, new BED ROOM. now I can scream loud "Hey I got a new BED ROOM!!!! woohoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!". so sad because the water faucet didn't work. huhu.. I have to wait my dad coming next year to repair it. but I think it's okay because I'm gonna go holiday next week until maybe next year. hellyeass!!!!!!!!!!

I can't wait for the holiday!!!!!!!! huahhhh!!! and I want to say goodbye for y'all for maybe next 2 weeks. cuz i'm gonna holiday in a ship and I think I can't get the internet connection there to access my blog. but I'll be back with a very long story about my holiday. hope that it will be FUN!!!

anyway,, I got a new necklace from my mom. maybe this is kind of her foregiveness because she move my room without remind me first. this is it. it's cute.. I like it!! :)

 I always like black and white combination.. they're just too elegant.

Teach me how to love you more..

To be honest,, I cry a lot yesterday to think that I can’t be an architect like what I want to. It hard for me to force my destiny that I have a parent like them. Bukan!! Bukan aku menyesal punya orang tua kaya mereka. Cuma ngerasa bego aja, kenapa gue nggak berani ambil keputusan penting buat hidup gue sendiri. Baru sekarang gue bener bener nyesel kenapa gue dulu nggak ambil SMA aja. Kenapa gue gampang aja milih jalan hidup gue kayak milih film. Sekarang betapa nyeselnya gue jadi anak SMK,, gue ngerasa di-anak tirikan bangettt!!!!!!!!!! Kenapa sih,, WHY?????????????

Okay,, now I should to erase ITB ARCHITECTURE from my wish lish. Omg,, I really dislike my life when I getting trap in sucha this feeling. I DO REALLY WANT TO BE AN ARCHITECT. REALLY!!!!!!!!!

Now I have to rearrange my plan. Maybe I was not destined to be an architect. Ya,, ya,, gue terima itu sekarang. Gue pikir,, orang pinter nyanyi nggak harus jadi penyanyi. Dan walaupun gue pikir gue bakalan hebat jadi arsitek, tapi sekarang gue ikhlas kalo takdir gue nggak jadi arsitek. Tapi gue bakal terus simpen mimpi gue ini. TUHAN, PLISS BIARIN GUE TETEP BERMIMPI JADI ARSITEK. Walaupun kenyataannya itu nggak bakal terwujud.

Dan gue pikir, nyenengin orang tua juga nggak ada salahnya. Tapi,, selama gue masih punya impian sendiri, gue bakal kejar impian gue dulu. Selama ini, gue selalu jalanin hidup gue dengan cara gue sendiri. Jadi buat keputusan ini pun gue bakal mutusin sendiri.

Sebenernya akar dari ini semua tu gara-gara gue nonton film cin(t)a. Bukan ceritanya yang bikin gue terinspirasi, tapi gara-gara setting di film itu yaitu fakultas arsitektur ITB. Hey,,, ITB!!!!!!! Gue jadi inget balik mimpi gue jadi arsitek. Terus gue jadi tambah excited buat nerusin cita-cita gue itu. Tapi,, setelah gue liat website ITB, kalo yang diterima di Sekolah Arsitek itu Cuma lulusan SMA IPA sodara-sodara!!! SMA IPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jadi gue nggak punya peluang satu persen pun buat masuk arsitektur ITB. Okay!!! Fine!!!! Deal with it!!

Jadi,, sekarang gue musti focus ke jalan lain. Hidup nggak harus jadi arsitek. Ntar kalo gue udah bisa bikin rumah sendiri, gue bakal lampiasin semua emosi arsitek gue yang nggak kesampean. Biarin sekarang gue berjalan lewat jalan lain. Mungkin jalan yang ini nggak kalah indah di banding jadi arsitek. GOODBYE MY DREAM!!! I believe, ini bukan kepasrahan. Ini pilihan gue,, dan ini final!!!!!!!! Paling nggak gue punya satu blacklist di college list gue.

Hmmmm,, is it boring to talk about my buried dreams, rite??? Dah gue juga udah cukup tegar sekarang buat ngerelain fakultas arsitektur ITB. So,, lets change the topic. Talking about school and my last final semester exam. You know what??? It’s a little bit disappointing. I mean, a lot disappointing. Not that I don’t get a high score. Its about my ability. I think, I can’t do my last exam well. I mean, it confusing. I can’t understand the subject. All the subject. So, I’ll make a short review about my last exam, okay??
Monday :
math : it just average. I got 84. Quite well, alhamdulillah..
religion : I think I luck for this one. I really don’t understand the question, but I got 76. Yes, alhamdulillah..
Indonesian : I don’t really smart for this subject. It just a bit confusing. But, I tried my best

Tuesday :
physic : I just a bit confuse on the multiple choice. But I think the essay was quite understanding..
entrepreneurship : ugkhh,, this is the worst!!!!! No comment. I’m sure I’m on the list of remedial.
Civic education : >.< I don’t care!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday :
sains : its quite good I think.. I wrong at the essay number 1. huhu.. bingung aja gue kira rantai makanan tuh sama kayak jarring-jaring makanan. Ternyata beda toh..
social : yayayaya… yang ini sih tinggal ngarang,, cerita panjang lebar. Yes good!!!
Sport : yeyeyeyeyey!!!!!!! All time cheating. Thank’s pak Iam!! Walaupun ketauan nyontek terus, tapi bapak pengawas yang baik hati!! Sungguh!!

Thursday :
Chemist : uhh,, bad!!! Yang gue pelajarin nggak ada yang keluar. Apa-apaan nih Bu Desti bikin soal.. -___________-
English : OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is the hardest English test I’ve ever do. I can’t do it!!!!!!!!!!! I’m quite sure if I join the English remedial next week. too bad 
RK-6 : uhh,, Bu Yuni keterlaluan nih bikin soalnya. Susah-susah banget!!!!!!! Gue aja nyerah. Disuruh gambar gue malah corat-coret kertas soal. Ahh,, bodo!!

Friday :
RK-7 : yeyeyeyey!!!!!! I love my last exam day. It just the best day in this week. yang gue pelajarin semuanya keluar. Love it too much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
RK-8 : ohkay,, nice..

I think,, UAS kali ini bakalan lebih buruk dari UTS gue kemaren. But, it’s okay. Kayak yang gue bilang di my older post. SCHOOL IS ABOUT LEARNING, NOT SCORING. Gue nggak terlalu peduli gue dapet nilai berapa. Selagi gue kompeten, yang penting tuh gue understand tentang pelajaran yang mereka kasih buat gue. Karena buat gue, sekolah itu tentang pembelajaran, bukan penilaian. But gue juga nggak bisa bantai kenyataan sekarang gitu aja, karena kebanyakan, sekarang itu sekolah buat nyari nilai. Tapi buat gue, selama gue lulus, itu udah cukup. It’s enough for me.

Just remember my friend problem. Jadi ada satu temen gue yang suka nyontek, tapi nggak mau nyontekin yang lain. Jadi, setelah UAS kemaren tuh temen-temen pada nyadar kalo dia itu egois banget. Buat gue, ini masalah simple. Setiap orang kan emang selalu mentingin dirinya sendiri. Mungkin temen gue itu lagi pengen pembuktian kalo dia itu bisa dapet nilai bagus. Jadi dia berusaha dengan cara dia yaitu nyontek. Tapi kalo gue jadi dia,, aduh,, gue bakal malu berat deh,, suerrr!! Gimana enggak,, bangga dari hasil yang bukan keringatnya sendiri. Itu sama aja mamerin mobil bokap ke temen-temen. Ato pamer ke orang lain kalo dia punya sodara yang hebat. (eh, plis deh yang hebat tuh sodara lo). Jadi,, intinya kalo gue dikasih kesempatan ngomong ke dia, gue bakal bilang gini.
“lo bangga nggak kalo lo pake dress bagus yang lo pinjem dari temen lo??”
Well, it mean many thing.. you can conclude it yourself, right??

I guess I write a lot of thing now, right? Is it okay?? Okay lah ya.. gue lagi pengen cerita banyak nihh..
Okay,, so,, next topic itu tentang Pak Cahya!! I know, he’s my teacher. But I just don’t really understand, why he looked so hate me. Idk why. Maybe in his eyes, I looked soooo lazy. Yahh,, I can’t blame him. Gue selalu di kelilingi temen-temen yang dipandang mereka “nakal” jadi mungkin gue kecipratan image mereka. Tapi bisa gue pastiin kalo gue totally different from they are. Ahh,, gue paling nggak suka disamain sama orang lain. Karena (sekali lagi gue bilang kalo) selama ini gue jalanin hidup gue dengan cara gue sendiri. Gue nggak suka niru gaya orang lain. That’s not my style.

Kenapa terus kalo gue deket sama anak-anak nakal terus gue di-cap nakal juga? Gue deket-deket kambing gue dikira kambing juga? Gue ngumpul sama pecundang, gue pecundang juga???? Hey,, wake up!! Bukan gitu konsep hidup. Gue ya gue!!! Mereka ya gue nggak tau, yang pasti nggak sama kayak gue.
Mending sih kalo cuma keliatan benci yah. Nah ini,, nyuruh nyapu lah,, bawa peralatan praktek dari lantai dasar ke lantai 3 pullak. Bikin jadwal piket seenak jidat. Huh!!
Ahh,, belum lagi Pak Cahya ruin my holiday. Ahhh,,, nyebelin banget dah pokoknya. Jadi tuh kan selasa depan libur tuh. Nah,, planning gue sih mau bolos aja hari senen-nya sekalian mudik abis seminggu stuck liatin foto copy-an mulu. Rasanya udah mau mati bosen gue liatin benda hitam putih itu. (ugh!) eh,, dengan polosnya dia bikin jadwal remedial dan koreksi bersama senen depan. Kamfret deh, beneran. Udah gitu ngasih taunya pas gue udah mudik lagi. Ihh,, nyebelin total deh tuh orang. Nggak pernah apa jadi murid kayak gue?? Tau nggak sih rasanya abis exam tuh kayak apa empet-nya?? Huh??? -_____________-

Ahh,, okay.. sekarang saatnya udahan. I’m tired. Ini sebenernya bikin hari jum’at malem. Gue nyampe harus begadang ampe jam 12.30 buat nulis ini. Jadi kayaknya sekarang gue harus ….
Chaooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS!!
wish list :

Quote of mine :
Him : say that you love me!!!!!!
Me : I can’t say it. I love you with all my heart, not my mouth. I can’t say it. sorry.. I worry if it out of my mouth, it can be a lie. But my heart, it’s really deep.