Forever Childish

I thought I was doing things right. When someone eventually make me realize that I'm not. I finally found out my self in a different angle. I was so selfish back then, I just do something that I want, pay less attention for other people advice. I believe what I like to believe, though the other things not necessarily wrong. I finally realize that I actually a hypocrite. I used to say 'I'm fine' when actually no. I have a simple yet disenchant me of many precious things today. I may not completely wrong. I just don't know how to. Today I learn that we should get a recipe before we try to cook something.

What worst is, I sometime feel afraid of being scolded when I do something wrongly. Then it ended up with me doing nothing. I'm drepressed? Yes. Yet now a best motivator for me is a good book and some good writing about psychology and such. If only I still have my long hair. I love to make a side braid of my hair whenever I feel like in a teribble mood and believe or not, it kinda relief me and I feel more better miraculously (when I braid my hair).

Thought that today I decide to post something that not typically. I doubt this before, but I decide to post it coz it actually noted in my 'to post list' so yeah. I come with the old dress of mine which I wear it differently than the normal way. It's kinda awkward to talk about this, but yeah I try to enjoy. 

I don't have fancy stuff in my closet, but I try my best creativity to make it more watchable. The dress (or not actually a dress?) is consist of two apparel. The red stripes top and black bottom. I add a basic black tee and polkadot bow clip (actually a hair clip) to create a different look of the dress.

Truthfully, I kinda have a hair treatment last week. I smoothing it! Something that I feel guilty about. I used to have a fluffy hair. Then I thought it would be great if it become more 'slim' and smooth but it turn out more limp and asdfghjkl weird. I look like have a mushroom hair now. Okay, maybe it just about the haircut. I try to love my current hair. Just in case to appreciate my choices. Now my next homework is to find out what's good for my typical face. I have a rounded shape, slanted eyes, chubby cheek, and thic lips which I don't know how to deal with them. I have to learn more how to put make up on them. 

I'm 18, but still looks so childish whatever I wear. Or maybe I have to grateful for my younger look? Thanks chubby cheek! 

And oh, I now have a lookbook. Please hype to give me more spirit to keep up my work.