Maturity

I'm no expert to talk about maturity. But since I hit an early stage of twentieth, I start to think a lot about the essence of being mature. Being old is a scary phrase for me. But being mature is a different topic. Getting old is a matter of number but mature is more into emotional state of a person.

I start to don't mind about something I used to consider as important thing for me. Such as, birthday maybe? I don't know, I start to loss my excitement of celebrating birthday. But I know it doesn't mean that I was mature enough when I no longer whine about birthday party to my parent or hoping for birthday present from my friends. But it is the essence that I'm talking about. You no longer want to troublesome other people around you because all you think is you wanna be independent.

You start to think about your preference career. You start chasing goals. Not only achievement goals but also property goals. You no longer easily offended by trivial thing because life itself has been complicated, right?

But top of it all, mature for me means you start to base your decisions on something different than what you do in the past. It indicates that we start to see the world in a different perspective because our mindset is growing. Of course we all hope it growing to the wiser way.

PS!

I write this article while listening to Coffitivity. Have yourself a try! It's a nice tool to boost your creativity. (:

When you feel insecure, you tend to pretend to be bold to calm yourself down

 

I don't know if this happen to other people, but I do feel that I tend to pretend to be bold when I actually don't know what should I do. I feel that bold is a form of positivity that I can maintain to calm my self down. I mean, just like blogging. If you happen to read my wordpress blog, where I babble much thing about happiness, someone may think that I'm a happy-go-lucky girl. The fact is, I mostly write the post when I don't know what should I do.

Funny. Even sometime I write in incoherent mind with something like "how can I find the way out from this problem?" question in my mind. Sometime I also figure out the solution while I'm writing my blog post.  So there is a time when a newly published post get me to think "great! You know the theory now let's start the practice".

But there also a time, when I still get stuck even when I write. Just like this post. I actually write this a couple days ago to overcome the uncertainty in my self. But I don't know, until three paragraphs, I still don't know what should I do to overcome that feeling.

But thanks god, yesterday I found this article written by my favorite James Clear. It give me an enlightenment to face my bad habit (dwell on something for a pretty long time before settling a decision).

He said :

Nearly every problem you face is temporary. But it cause immediate pain. And we often let this pain drive our choices and actions

.Making better choices is often a matter of choosing better constraints. By limiting your options to those that fit your values, you are taking an important step to ensuring that your behavior matches your beliefs.

So that's how I finally make my decision.

PS!
Happy independent day for my belove country, Indonesia. I know, I haven't done anything for you but I do wish all the better thing be with us ahead. Amiin (:

And oh, if you have any relative that is pregnant or ever been pregnant, please help me to to fill this questionnaire. Gracias! :D

Holiday update

Nothing much to say since this is just an obligatory update so I'm not leaving this week without any post. I'm having my college break here in my hometown peacefully. But since it's been almost a month, I'm getting bored here. You know, too much sweet things will bring you into diabetes. Haha.

I don't have anything to preach about in my wordpress blog, so I'm coming here to babbling. Hey, take a look at this guy!

His character in Flower boy next door was just soooo lovable. And I feel that he's kinda similar to my favorite cutie Min Hyuk. Anyone with me?

But when he's acting serious scene, he remind me of my favorite Jo In Sung. I'd like to see him on his next drama but too bad he was started his mandatory military service since April 2014. Hmm, I have to wait a couple years any longer to see him on screen.